Finally....

Okay...so the anxiety is subsiding... Finally, everything is falling back into place. Moving next weekend. Sigh...

I'm definitely going to start packing today. My sister tells me yesterday that people aren't exactly on the same wavelength we're on... I forget how she worded it (which is too bad because it was right on target) but she was saying we're just way ahead of the game when it comes to getting things together and organization while everyone else lags behind. She's right. And I don't mean to sound so full of myself because it's more of an issue we have than anything else.

I do tend to procrastinate a lot but at least I always KNOW where I'm going or what I'm going to do. It really clicked last night when I heard my roommate discussing her moving situation with a friend and I thought....she just NOW decided when to move and how to pack, etc etc. So really, it is just me acting crazy. I just can't NOT know things... I have to have a schedule or I end up not doing anything or doing everything half assed.

Anyway, now I can breathe, but I have to say that I'm super sad to be leaving Brooklyn. It has truly become my home in the past year (even though I've been here for three). But I decided that I will move back to Brooklyn or downtown Manhattan after I'm done with school. Because the truth of the matter is that I need money and I can't just up and leave. My funds have depleted considerably since being unemployed and I have to use my brain.

It's funny. This past week I was talking to my childhood sweetheart and he asks me to drop everything and move down to Florida with him in March. Smh... First of all, I haven't seen you in how many years? About 12? And secondly, been there and done that. Not making the same mistake again. Plus, my emotions are in a different place right now. The illusive feelings I had for this kid over a year ago are a big joke right now.

The way I'm feeling about life... and other things and people... well, let's just say I'm taking everything for what it is and everyone for what they are. I care immensely for people I never thought I'd give a second look....and I'm just generally at a different place in my life right now. Things are good right now. Life is good. Why change anything?

I am happy and grateful to be where I am today.... I want to go further but I'm definitely content as of right now. I will be even happier and more grateful when I'm done with school.... and when I've moved into my own place....